A Pathway to Bondage, The Way to Death

A path to bondage and the way to death

It begins as an enticement with thoughts from the enemy coming only as a suggestive thought. After giving into that compulsion just once by entertaining the thought placed in the mind the desire and hunger becomes stronger. A sore begins to form upon the flesh. The imagination continues with the sinful pleasures of the imagination but not all at once, that would be too obvious of course. A little here, a little there, all the while making you thirst for more. The sore in your flesh has become infected by repeated exposure to filth, to sin, to that which is contrary to God. And it all began by a thought. Yet one still remains asleep as they have become drunk on their own blood to satisfy their thirst. Because of the drunkenness the desires of the flesh and the will to feed that desire continues. The infected sore that was in your flesh becomes a consuming disease getting into your bloodstream reaching the innermost part of your being effecting even the soul. You have become pregnant with sin and when birthed becomes abomination. Think about what your thinking about. Catch it before it goes further. But no matter how strong the bondage the son, Jesus, can set you free and free indeed. Do not go back to the same principles you knew before you were set free. Take authority over your thoughts and you will have authority over your actions. Be careful what thought you entertain.

 

Roots (Intro)

Roots

The Lord desires his body to be healed and whole, from the inside out. Jesus is the physician. It is the work of the Holy Spirit to strengthen you with power in your inner being by healing you and making you whole.

Healing is part of the sanctification process, and it is a process. The more you let Christ heal you, the stronger you will become. When we are wounded we are weak. But when we are healed we are made strong, by his spirit.

Luke 11:39, Jesus said to the Pharisees, “You clean the outside of the cup and dish but inside you are filthy- full of greed and wickedness.” We can clean up our outside and look religious and well enough, but what is on the inside? Only Jesus can clean the inside, our inner being.

Mathew 23:26 says, “Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.” We focus on being a better person by cleaning up our actions, our surface. We stop cursing. We quit drugs. We look different. But we fail to realize that this is only the outside of the cup. The inside is still dirty.

All our actions are fruit, Luke 6:45: for “out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” Our actions are fruit and all fruit can be traced back to a root. The root is in our heart where only Jesus can heal. The root that is in our heart births fruit that is shown by our actions.

The fruit either comes from Satan or God. It’s simple. The Lord sows seeds of righteousness in our hearts but the enemy also comes in sowing seeds of corruption.

Mathew 13:25: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field. But while everyone was sleeping, his enemy came and sowed weeds among the wheat, and went away. When the wheat sprouted and formed heads, then the weeds also appeared.”

And so the Lord has sowed good seed in a man. But the enemy came in and sowed weeds, seeds of corruption, among the wheat. And so both the bad seed and the good seed took root and both seeds sprouted and formed fruit. When the fruit, our actions, are birthed, it is then that you can see the weeds and tell them apart from the wheat. When we see the fruit of addiction we know that it is not birthed from God. On the other hand, when we see fruits of the spirit such as love, joy, peace, patience, etc. We know that is the fruit from God.

Mathew 13:27: “The owners servants came to him and said, ‘Sir, didn’t you sow good seed in your field? Where then did the weeds come from?’ ‘An enemy did this,’ he replied.” So then, your actions are the result or fruit of a root. And that root came from either a seed of corruption or a seed of righteousness, God or Satan.

Mathew 13:28: “The servants asked him, ‘Do you want us to go and pull them up?’ ‘No,’ he answered, ‘because while you are pulling the weeds, you may root up the wheat with them. Let both grow together until the harvest. At that time I will tell the harvesters: First collect the weeds and tie them in bundles to be burned; then gather the wheat and bring it into my barn”.

After the seed of corruption and the seed of righteousness is planted in you they are allowed to grow together and bear fruit, which is our actions. The seed of corruption is sin. The seed of righteousness is Jesus.

Once the fruit is ripe then it is time for the harvest. When your fruit is visible it is then time to take it to the Lord. Let the Holy Spirit separate the wheat from the tear. Sanctification. The weeds will be collected and tied in bundles to be burned. The Holy Spirit, spirit of fire, burns away our impurities. It is a process of healing.

Again, all our actions are fruit, and all our fruit has a root. And so we have to ask the Holy Spirit to search us and then by prayer and meditation let him heal us at the root of the issue in our inner being. By faith we are healed.

We can stop all those fowl things that we do on the outside, but we can’t heal the root without the help of the Holy Spirit. So, if we don’t clean the inside first and get the root and we only kill the fruit, then the root will only sprout more and different rotten fruit. Even though the fruit is different it is still rotten. The root is the same. Different actions stemming from the same issue.

A deep wound will take root in our inner being and sprout fruit. That wound will remain and manifest itself in different ways throughout our life. While we can put a stop to unwanted behavior in our life, if the root issue is not uncovered and healed, then it will manifest again at a later time and in a different way.

If you find that you straighten out one issue only to run right into another issue in your life, then I urge you to ask the Lord to search you for some roots. Ask yourself, “is there a root issue causing all these things one after another in my life?”

The Lord desires his body to be whole, healthy, and fully functional. Let Jesus the physician heal you. Throughout this series we will take a close look at our self and ask the Lord to search us, finding any unclean thing in us so that we can seek healing.

This is a process and will require a close personal relationship with the Lord. If you are ready to get to the root of your issue and nip this thing in the bud, then I urge you to join in. You will get out of it what you put in. Be prepared to seek the Lord, surrender, and to spend time alone with him letting him search you to pull up those nasty roots. While this can be a painful process, it is well worth all the effort you put in. Be ready to lay your heart bear and open up to what God has to show you about yourself. Do you want to be healed or do you want to remain wounded? It is time to stop covering up the issue only to have other issues pop up hindering your life. Let God fix it once and for all. May the Holy Spirit burn within you.

This is the introduction to a series called “Roots”. The Lord has put it on my heart to promote healing in the body of Christ so that his people may be healed and made whole. The purpose of this series is to heal and strengthen the individual and the body of Christ in order to function in the magnitude that the Lord has for us. We don’t have to keep walking around wounded. By his stripes we are healed! Let’s seek healing and grab hold of the hem of his garment until we have received our healing. Let’s be active in our faith and reach out to grab hold of the only one who can heal us, Jesus!

Roots week 5/ Pride

Pride

Prayer:

Lord thank you for this day. Thank you for freedom and thank you for who I am in you. Thank you that you don’t leave me the same way you found me, for changing me glory to glory, revealing myself to me and what is in me. I ask that as we go through this process of healing and self-searching and seeking your face, that you reveal any unclean thing in me. Lord not only do I ask you to reveal the fruit in my life, but remind me and constantly teach me who I am in you and allow me to grow. I speak healing over the body of Christ that all things be made new. I speak life to the body. Dry bones come alive! I curse the rotten fruit of pride at its root in the name of Jesus. I release healing and revelation of who we are in Christ over the body of believers today. I bind all lies of the enemy and release truth in the name of Jesus! Lord search our hearts and heal us at the root planting new seeds of righteousness. For your glory! Amen.

 

Pride In The Beginning:

                Most everyone has heard 1Timothy 4:10, “For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil.” But why? In the beginning Adam and Eve fell weak to pride wanting to be like God living by their own will and desires, not regarding the will of God that said Do Not Touch. Pride was the beginning of the fall of man. Satan was cast out of heaven because of pride, he wanted to be God.

Pride has many definitions. St. Augustine states that “pride is love of one’s own excellence.” Meher Baba states that “pride is specific feeling through which egoism manifests.” Pride is self-idolatry, living for one’s self, not God. Jesus humbled himself even to death on a cross. How much will we humble ourselves to deny our own will to live out Gods will for our lives? To live for kingdom riches instead of worldly riches?

 

The root

                1Timothy 6:10; “For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.” How true that is! The love of money is the root of all kinds of evil and in order to obtain money people will commit sin they never thought they were capable of. I know from experience.

Yes, in the past I did many things for money that didn’t even come close to glorifying God, things I never thought I would do. Money is the root, but pride is the shovel that dug that hole. Pride is found in a faulty foundation as we discussed last.

It goes back to mistaken identity. A foundation built on worldly values and wealth instead of on kingdom values and kingdom wealth. We live for things beyond this world.

This foundation of pride is built on self instead of Christ. Built on pride instead of humbleness. Christ is a depiction of humbleness not pride. When Christ is the foundation you know who you are in Christ and have no need to build on worldly foundations. You know who you are and who he is. But pride is all about self and if you don’t know who you are in Christ then it is mistaken identity built on lies of the enemy about who you are.

Money is worldly riches and the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil. Why do men love money? For self- gain, for control for ego, and even self -worth. This is Pride. If you have no money and you base your identity on how much money you have then who are you? Worthless. If you base your identity on how much money you have and you are the richest man in the world then who are you? Then you think you are God with all that money, power and control. This is pride and you are mistaken. God says in him you are worthy with or without money. You in Christ are worth more than money.

Money says nothing about who you are, God does. Ever heard the saying, “money talks?” Yea it talks alright! Who does your money say you are? Are you giving this power over your life? Is pride, love of self, getting in the way? Are you idolizing money? Are you idolizing self? Why are you selling drugs? Is it for the kingdom of God or self? Why are you at your job? To promote self or kingdom of God? Why are you lying to obtain better status with your friends? Why are you hanging out with that certain group of people, to glorify God and tell them the good news or to promote self? Why are you preaching the gospel, for self-gain and worth or for the glory of God and the kingdom of heaven? These can be hard questions but let’s search our self and let God search us for an honest answer.

We must do this to stay on track. Don’t let the world or things of the world tell you who you are. You are not of the world so you will not find worth, purpose or your identity in things of the world. You will only find that in God. All you will find in the world are lies. Remember this: We all seek our purpose and who we are. Please know that you will never find this in the world. All you will find is lies that will eventually consume who you are and your very nature, your identity, your self-worth, your purpose. Your purpose can only be found in Christ. Seek God, the only one who can tell you your purpose, worth, identity, and so forth. Pay attention! This is your warning!

Now on the other hand, pride can cause self-pity.Why can’t I be better? Why me? Poor me!” This is all about self. Notice it continually points to you. If you are in Christ you are a victor not a victim!

Humble yourself before the Lord and ask self who do you live for? Self or God? Every decision you make, everything you do, examine yourself and ask why. Is it for my own advancement or God and the kingdom advancement? For my glory or his?

Ask this question every time and I guarantee you will see selfishness and selfish motives will be revealed. Then you can turn from it to stop living for self and the world and live for God. Paul says “To live is Christ to die is gain.” He did not say to live is pain or to live is gain, etc. But it is Christ that we live for.

It is a process weeding out pride. When you see it you know it’s ugly. Pride is hard to look at in our self because it is so ugly. We choose to be in denial. Were even to prideful to admit we struggle with pride. But I tell you that every man has struggled or will struggle with pride. It is a deadly weapon from Satan. What man is above being tempted? But we can turn from pride and seek Christ in humility and humbleness. But first we have to confess pride.

James: 5; 16, “Confess to one another that you may be healed.” When you see pride curse it at its root! You have authority use it. Speak the word of God over your life and seek him in prayer. Philippians 4; 8: “Meditate on whatever things are noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, if there is anything praiseworthy, meditate on these things.” Meditate on the word of God day and night.

When you feel self-pity and ask why me; It is because you are a threat to the enemy! Where do you find your peace, happiness, wealth, purpose, and self-worth? Not in self or world but in God. Money can’t make or break you in the kingdom of God!

Jesus humbled himself even to death on a cross. Jesus said, “Father your will be done, not mine.” He wasn’t thinking of self but of the kingdom of God, the big picture. We must humble ourselves and realize we live for things beyond this world.

If we do our own will then we are not spirit led. The Bible says the children of God are led by the spirit of God. If you are not being led by the spirit and doing your own will then you are not under the covenant and you are under the curse set through Adam. If you are led by the Holy Spirit and in Gods will then you are under the covenant by the blood of Christ and the curse is reversed through the blood of Jesus who the Bible refers to as the second Adam. The first Adam became into a living soul, the last Adam into a life-giving spirit.”

 

Choose this day whom you will serve

                Will you serve self or God? Will you serve this world and Satan and the spiritual rulers of this world or God? We forget and start thinking it is all about us, but it’s not about us. It’s about him. We must become less so he can become more.

Pride is about self. Self-pity, self-advancement, selfishness. What are your motives? Are you living for self or God? Selfish ambition? Pride propels us to sin.

Pride leads a person to sin in a pursuit for his own good, to rebel against God and Gods will to serve self. Humility is defined as “A person’s recognition of his dependence on God and of his absolute need for submitting himself to God.” We must see our self as God sees us.

We must know where our accomplishments and provision come from and then if we do then we realize we have no reason to take pride. We did nothing. He did everything. If what I just said stung, you may want to examine yourself for pride. True humility is not feeling inadequate inferior or incompetent or unneeded, but it is a servant’s heart to know it is not all about you.

 

False humility

                Do not let anyone who delights in false humility and the worship of angels disqualify you for the prize. Such a person goes into great detail about what he has seen, and his unspiritual mind puffs him up with idle notions. He has lost connection with the Head, from whom the whole body, supported and held together by its ligaments and sinews, grows as God causes it to grow.”

When I read this verse I asked God if these people that the verse is talking about were in fact connected to the head, which is Christ then how did they lose that connection with the head. Then he showed me.

The verse says that his mind puffs him up. This is pride. He was saved by grace through faith and began serving out of the love he had for the Lord but slowly fell weak to pride and living for his self, taking pride in the serving he did using it for his own advancement and eventually lost connection with the head who is Christ. He was no longer serving Christ but was serving self.

The Lord showed me how easy it is to fall into this not to judge but to pray that I don’t fall. This verse is talking about false humility. Not that the intentions were against God in the beginning but that is what it became. This humility became false humility by not serving to please God but for self, acting and even convincing themselves that it is God whom they serve but it is out of selfish ambition.

Paul says in Philippians 1; 15-18: It is true that some preach Christ out of envy and rivalry, but others out of goodwill. The latter do so out of love, knowing that I am put here for…. The former preach Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely, supposing that they can stir up.”

And so this tells me that you can preach Christ for selfish ambition and not out of love. Who then are you serving? The Lord showed me that when you serve God that the devil tries to come in with pride making you think highly of yourself for what God has done through you.

DO NOT let this in! If you begin letting that pride in thinking highly of yourself for what God has done through you then you are on a dangerous road. God works through all his children and yes each one of us is special and important to him, but the miracles and works of God done through you belong to God. It is him. It is not you. It is not how good you are or that you are more special than the next but it is simply because he loves you. It is for his glory not ours.

The Lord showed me many men that he had performed mighty works and miracles through but began falling weak to pride and soon found themselves serving Christ out of selfish ambition instead of out of love.

Do not judge. The higher the calling is on your life, the more you will be tempted by pride. You have not walked in the next man’s shoes so you don’t know the devils he faces. You have heard the saying, “Were all in the same game; Just different levels. Dealing with the same hell; just different devils.”

Pray for one another that we do not fall weak to pride and the Lord can do much through us. We have to do much searching and analyze our self constantly.

You say you serve God. But when you do something honestly ask yourself, Am I serving because I love self and want to serve God because it will be better for me?; or do I serve God because I love him and want to further kingdom heaven?

What are you doing? Are you doing it because you love God and want what’s best for the kingdom or for yourself? Are you really serving God?

When writing my book of course I wanted it to prosper, but God had me constantly re-evaluate my intentions and my motives behind the book and behind serving him. I had to ask myself, “am I doing this to be successful, to provide for self, or am I doing it simply out of love for God, to deliver others?

The Lord had me do this many times and still has me do it consistently. I decided that whether the book prospers or not that it is Gods will and I submit. Then God showed me that even if the book does prosper, even if I can make it as a writer and minister, that it is not the writing that provides, it is not my job that provides, it is God, my provider! And so he straightens me out quite often to keep me on track.

This is crucial to our growth and keeps us on track and connected with the head. Ask why you do what you do and be honest. Let God straighten you out. Know that if what you do prospers it is because God made it prosper, he gave the increase.

When I would start getting stressed about whether or not the book would sell I was asked by the Lord, “Even if it doesn’t sell, if it delivers one soul and even if you gave them all away and it furthered the kingdom of heaven but did not provide will you still do it?”

The answer was yes, I would, and did. Then he said, “Then remember why you are doing what you are doing and do not forget. Always go back to what you first knew, love. Remember the love that compelled you in the first place, then nothing else matters.”

After serving for a time we get caught up in numbers, money, and success. We lose our purpose. The whole reason for serving in the first place is out of LOVE. We were compelled out of love but then some are lost to pride, success, power, and money. Remember. Stay connected to the head

Week 4 Roots (Continuing in Christ)

Continue In Christ

Recap:

These past few weeks we have been praying for the Lord to reveal our fruit. We have searched ourselves and allowed the Lord to search us. We have spoken and proclaimed Gods word over our lives and ourselves, battling negative thoughts and tearing down strongholds. Now it is time to continue growing in Christ. The fight is not over.

 

Rooted in Love:

In the beginning of this series we studied a bible verse that dealt with being rooted in love. Ephesians 3:16-19: “I pray that you being rooted and established in love.” God wants us rooted and established in love. He is love. He wants us rooted and established in him. This takes some effort.

Philippians 1:9: “This is my prayer that your love may abound more in knowledge and depth of insight so that you may be able to discern what is best and may be pure and blameless until the day of Christ, filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Jesus Christ to the glory and praise of God.”

Even after we are rooted and established in love we must pray for one another and even ourselves that our love abounds more in knowledge and depth of insight so that we may be able to discern what is best so that we can be filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Christ. We must continue growing in Christ even after we are rooted. We change glory to glory and are ever changing. Don’t just come to the Lord but continue in your faith.

 

Fear of Failure

In our second week we discussed fear of failure. For me in particular my fear of failure went all the way back to a root that was planted because of past hurts such as people telling me I wasn’t good enough and always feeling inadequate. The Lord revealed my fruit and it was fear of failure.

I traced the fruit back to the root and realized it was birthed out of forgiveness. I realized that I would have to constantly go back to remembering who I am in Christ and what God said about me. I had to let it go. I had to choose to believe what God said about me or what man said about me. In order to even know the truth I had to read Gods word.

  • First I had to let the root surface.
  • Then, I had to accept it. I was in denial that it even hurt me.
  • Then, I grieved
  • Then, I forgave and had to make the choice to keep on forgiving.
  • Then, had to read the word to know the truth.
  • Then, I had to take those negative thoughts captive and speak the truth over them that I learned.
  • Now it is time to move on! Let it go!

 

Keep battling those lies and don’t allow the devil to replant that seed!

 

                Faulty Foundation

In week three we discussed faulty foundations and mistaken identity. Before we came to Christ we built on a faulty foundation because we did not know the Lord. I built on faulty foundations of rejection and mistaken identity.

Because I didn’t know the Lord, I didn’t know what he said about me or who I really was. I let the world and those in the world dictate who I am. This produced rotten fruit.

 

Find your worth in Christ

In the second part of week three we discussed how to find our worth in Christ and that is by having a relationship with him and building our foundation on his word. Now that you have put on the mind of Christ you can accept and understand who he is and who you are. You no longer have to believe the lies of the enemy and accept who he says you are in the world. You are no longer spiritually discerned. You can understand the things of the spirit of God and receive it. You are made new. You are a new creation in Christ Jesus. You are no longer who you once thought you were in the world. You are no longer in the world, you are in Christ. Take negative thoughts captive and battle it with Gods word. Tear down strongholds with the word of God.

 

Resurfacing Lies

When I started this series the Lord revealed to me some ugly fruit. One in particular was fear of failure. I got to that root, which was un-forgiveness, and it was indeed uprooted. It was a process and is a process. But now even after that root had been destroyed I was still hearing lies of the enemy.

It made me think to myself, “Have I really forgiven? Why is that root still there?” Here’s the thing; Satan was speaking lies into my ear making suggestions. Even after the root was destroyed Satan was trying to replant it by making me think God hadn’t healed the root.

You see; when I had tried to find a home for me and my children a lady had told me that I couldn’t afford her apartment. Well, I heard I couldn’t afford a home for my children at all. I started getting depressed and angry.

Once I discovered the root, I forgave and grieved. I went through the whole process. It did take time. I began proclaiming truth over my life and battling that fear and those negative thoughts.

The devil said, “You will fail.” God said, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!” Amen!

The more I spoke Gods word over my life the more I came to believe it. We are overcomers in Christ Jesus! Before long I did get my apartment for me and my children. The Lord blessed me beyond my wildest imagination.

You see; if it totally depended on me I couldn’t have afforded a place for me and my children. Thank God it’s not all on me! Because of God I got an apartment. It was nothing short of a miracle.

I shouldn’t have been eligible because of my record BUT GOD! I received help with public housing. It was all God. I know public housing seems horrible to some, but to me it was a blessing beyond my wildest dreams! And Gods not done yet!

Everything was going great. Well, it was time to start promoting my first book SIN. Needless to say I started hearing that old familiar voice. “You will fail. What if that book doesn’t make it? You will be a failure. You would have done all that for nothing. No one will even read it. This is pointless.”

I immediately captured those negative thoughts and brought them to the Lord. If I had believed those things then I would have given up like in the past. I would have believed the lie and allowed the enemy to replant a root of fear of failure that had already been demolished.

At first I thought that root was still there. But God showed me that the root had been healed and this was only an attempt of the enemy to reintroduce that fear back into my life. If it worked for him in the past he is sure to try it again.

All of this reminded me of a song. It goes like this: The giant reminds you of all the times you tried before and failed. You’ll never win. You’ll never win. But the voice of truth tells me a different story. Never be afraid. This is for my Glory. I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

So I wrote down all these things the enemy was saying and held them up to the Lord and said take it. I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth! Lord you said this book was for your glory and that souls would be saved! I believe! For your glory! The devil can’t stop it and neither can I.

Beside of what the enemy said I wrote down what God said. The Lord showed me this: Satan keeps us bound with lies. We only have to choose to believe the truth of God. We are free but Satan lies and says no. Then it is up to us who we believe. God showed me that it was like sitting in a jail cell but the door was unlocked. I was technically free and could leave but I chose to believe Satan’s lie saying that I was in prison and the door was locked. When Satan tells you that the door is locked don’t let that keep you from at least trying the door. Fear will cripple you if you let it. We think, “What if the door really is locked? Then if I try the door and fail, I will be a failure.” Then we don’t even try the door.

 

Don’t give in:

Even after getting to a root Satan will often come back to where that root was buried and try to water it and see if anything is left in order to make it grow again. Because it worked so well in the past for him, he is guaranteed to try it again. A few weeks ago we discussed fear of failure.

Fear of failure and rejection, both manifest and take root because of a faulty foundation as we discussed. We talked about replacing those roots with the word of God. Don’t leave the hole empty where you removed the root. You have to replant something in its place.

Luke 11:24: “When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, I will return to the house I left. When it arrives, it finds the house swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first.” Replace that root with the Word of God, with truth!

Do not leave your house empty! We must learn who we are in Christ. Even though I had gotten to the root of fear which was un-forgiveness and a faulty foundation, I faced the voice of the enemy again. He is persistent in tearing you down.

God pulled up that root so Satan was busy trying to replant. Also, sometimes it takes time tearing down strongholds and healing. We have to be persistent in letting God build us up just as our enemy is persistent in tearing us down.

Colossians 2:6: “So then, just as you have received Christ as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.” We must continue in Christ. Continue being built up in him after you are rooted. Keep learning, keep speaking over yourself and keep your faith.

Colossians 2:8: “See to it that no one takes you captive through hollow and deceptive philosophy, which depends on human tradition and basic principles of the world, rather on Christ.” Even after getting to the root of your rotten fruit and uprooting it, Satan will try to come back in and take you captive. That’s why it’s crucial to continue to live in Christ as scripture says, continue living in him, rooted and build up in him.

Satan will try to take you captive through things of this world rather than Christ. While Colossians 2:8 Paul is talking to them about destructive heresies in the church telling them to remain rooted and growing in Christ so they aren’t taken captive by deceptive philosophy, this also goes for the individual against lies of the enemy.

Satan will try to take you captive after you’re delivered by telling you lies even about yourself. If it worked in the past he will try it again. But understand and know that what you are hearing are only lies, unless of course you give them life. It can only affect you if you allow it. This is why it is so important to know who you are in Christ.

Not only know who you are but continue growing in Christ. Being rooted and established in love. Continuing in Christ and being built up. Wash in the word and drink of the living water continuously. We change glory to glory. This is more than a lifestyle and not just a onetime event. You received Christ, great! But it’s not over. There’s much more. Now continue in Christ! Grow!

Visit it but don’t stay there

Satan will tell you lies. You link it back to a root that had already been uprooted. But instead of proclaiming life over yourself that the root has been uprooted, you begin rehashing whatever that root was and reliving it. Then you stay there.

You keep going back to that root. You wallow in self-pity. We can get stuck on blaming everything in our life on what happened to us in the past. This is self-pity and to put it bluntly, self-pity is pride. It is about self. The point is to heal, move on, then when Satan comes back with a lie instead of letting him replant that root speak life! Face it, learn from it, heal, then move on. We have to move on! Let it go! Getting to a root is important, but then be careful not to let Satan replant that root. Uproot, replant, then grow and continue growing. Next, Chapter we will be talking about pride. We mentioned self-pity. Self-pity is a form of pride. Let’s get to the root of it!

Proverbs 23:7: “For what a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” Renew your mind. Wash in the word. Do not be double minded. James 1:7: “A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. For let that man not expect anything from the Lord.” God is the plan. There should be no plan B!

 

My prayer for you:

Father, thank you for speaking to your children. You are mighty! You are worthy of all our praise! Forgive us Lord for being double minded at times and lacking in faith. I pray for those who struggle with doubt and unbelief, even myself. I pray for our faith that it be strengthened. I pray that you teach us to be mighty in prayer and to trust in you. Teach us to love as you have loved. Let us speak boldly and not stop speaking and proclaiming the words of the Lord. Let us stay focused. God you are doing things far beyond anything we could imagine. Let us lean not on our own understanding but to trust in you. There is no limit to your mighty strength, power, and love! Strengthen us Lord with power through your spirit in our inner being so that Christ may swell in our heart through faith. Let us be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Lord heal our brokenness and replace it with a seed of righteousness. Strengthen us and give us knowledge to fight the lies of the enemy. Let us stand firm in your truth and proclaim your word! God we give you praise and glory and honor. In Jesus name. Amen

 

Steps to digging up the root:

  • Ask the Lord to reveal the fruit in your life and allow the root to surface.
  • Accept it. I was in denial that it even hurt me. Face that denial and accept the truth.
  • It’s ok to grieve, but take it to the Lord in prayer.
  • Forgive and make the choice to keep on forgiving.
  • Read the word to know the truth.
  • Take those negative thoughts captive and speak the truth over them that you learned.
  • Now it is time to move on! Let it go!

 

Keep battling those lies and don’t allow the devil to replant that seed!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Outline and key points:

  • The fight is not over.
  • Even after we are rooted and established in love we must pray for one another and even ourselves that our love abounds more in knowledge and depth of insight so that we may be able to discern what is best so that we can be filled with the fruit of righteousness that comes through Christ.

 

. I realized that I would have to constantly go back to remembering who I am in Christ and what God said about me. I had to let it go. I had to choose to believe what God said about me or what man said about me. In order to even know the truth I had to read Gods word.

  • First I had to let the root surface.
  • Then, I had to accept it. I was in denial that it even hurt me.
  • Then, I grieved
  • Then, I forgave and had to make the choice to keep on forgiving.
  • Then, had to read the word to know the truth.
  • Then, I had to take those negative thoughts captive and speak the truth over them that I learned.
  • Now it is time to move on! Let it go!

 

Keep battling those lies and don’t allow the devil to replant that seed!

  • . Before we came to Christ we built on a faulty foundation because we did not know the Lord. I built on faulty foundations of rejection and mistaken identity.
  • Because I didn’t know the Lord, I didn’t know what he said about me or who I really was. I let the world and those in the world dictate who I am. This produced rotten fruit.
  • . Now that you have put on the mind of Christ you can accept and understand who he is and who you are. You no longer have to believe the lies of the enemy and accept who he says you are in the world. You are no longer spiritually discerned. You can understand the things of the spirit of God and receive it. You are made new. You are a new creation in Christ Jesus. You are no longer who you once thought you were in the world. You are no longer in the world, you are in Christ. Take negative thoughts captive and battle it with Gods word. Tear down strongholds with the word of God.
  • But now even after that root had been destroyed I was still hearing lies of the enemy.
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    • It made me think to myself, “Have I really forgiven? Why is that root still there?” Here’s the thing; Satan was speaking lies into my ear making suggestions. Even after the root was destroyed Satan was trying to replant it by making me think God hadn’t healed the root.
  • The devil said, “You will fail.” God said, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!” Amen!
  • The more I spoke Gods word over my life the more I came to believe it.
  • Needless to say I started hearing that old familiar voice. “You will fail. What if that book doesn’t make it? You will be a failure. You would have done all that for nothing. No one will even read it. This is pointless.”
  • If I had believed those things then I would have given up like in the past. I would have believed the lie and allowed the enemy to replant a root of fear of failure that had already been demolished.
  • At first I thought that root was still there. But God showed me that the root had been healed and this was only an attempt of the enemy to reintroduce that fear back into my life. If it worked for him in the past he is sure to try it again.
  • The giant reminds you of all the times you tried before and failed. You’ll never win. You’ll never win. But the voice of truth tells me a different story. Never be afraid. This is for my Glory. I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.
  • So I wrote down all these things the enemy was saying and held them up to the Lord and said take it. I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth!

 

    • Beside of what the enemy said I wrote down what God said. The Lord showed me this: Satan keeps us bound with lies. We only have to choose to believe the truth of God. We are free but Satan lies and says no. Then it is up to us who we believe. God showed me that it was like sitting in a jail cell but the door was unlocked. I was technically free and could leave but I chose to believe Satan’s lie saying that I was in prison and the door was locked. When Satan tells you that the door is locked don’t let that keep you from at least trying the door. Fear will cripple you if you let it. We think, “What if the door really is locked? Then if I try the door and fail, I will be a failure.” Then we don’t even try the door.
  • Even after getting to a root Satan will often come back to where that root was buried and try to water it and see if anything is left in order to make it grow again.
  • Fear of failure and rejection, both manifest and take root because of a faulty foundation as we discussed.
  • Don’t leave the hole empty where you removed the root. You have to replant something in its place.

 

    • Luke 11:24: “When an evil spirit comes out of a man, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. Then it says, I will return to the house I left. When it arrives, it finds the house swept clean and put in order. Then it goes and takes seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that man is worse than the first.” Replace that root with the Word of God, with truth!
  • . Even though I had gotten to the root of fear which was un-forgiveness and a faulty foundation, I faced the voice of the enemy again. He is persistent in tearing you down.
  • We have to be persistent in letting God build us up just as our enemy is persistent in tearing us down.
  • Colossians 2:6: “So then, just as you have received Christ as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.” We must continue in Christ. Continue being built up in him after you are rooted. Keep learning, keep speaking over yourself and keep your faith.
  • Satan will try to take you captive through things of this world rather than Christ.
  • Satan will try to take you captive after you’re delivered by telling you lies even about yourself. If it worked in the past he will try it again. But understand and know that what you are hearing are only lies, unless of course you give them life. It can only affect you if you allow it.
  • Not only know who you are but continue growing in Christ. Being rooted and established in love. Continuing in Christ and being built up. Wash in the word and drink of the living water continuously.

 

    • Satan will tell you lies. You link it back to a root that had already been uprooted. But instead of proclaiming life over yourself that the root has been uprooted, you begin rehashing whatever that root was and reliving it. Then you stay there.
  • We can get stuck on blaming everything in our life on what happened to us in the past. This is self-pity and to put it bluntly, self-pity is pride. It is about self. The point is to heal, move on, then when Satan comes back with a lie instead of letting him replant that root speak life! Face it, learn from it, heal, then move on. We have to move on! Let it go! Getting to a root is important, but then be careful not to let Satan replant that root. Uproot, replant, then grow and continue growing.
  • Uproot, replant, then grow and continue growing.
  • Proverbs 23:7: “For what a man thinks in his heart, so is he.” Renew your mind. Wash in the word. Do not be double minded. James 1:7: “A double minded man is unstable in all his ways. For let that man not expect anything from the Lord.” God is the plan. There should be no plan B!

 

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Week 3 Part 1and 2 outline

Outline Week 3/Roots

Key Points (Part 1)

  • If we build on a faulty foundation then we are bound to fall. If we are finding our identity in anything but Christ then whatever we find our identity in is our foundation or points to our foundation.
  • I thought back on my addiction and wondered of the differing root causes, there were more than one root to the addiction.
  • I was building on a worldly foundation because I didn’t know the Lord.
  • If we are in Christ we are not rejected, we are accepted.
  • I wrote down all the fruit that the Lord showed me, then I linked them back to a root by prayer and seeking God.

I discovered that rejection was closely related to fear.

  • The Bible says there is no fear in love, perfect love casts out all fear. Those who fear have not been perfected in love.
  • Jesus is love and we will not be perfected until he comes back, but we are in the process of being perfected now.
  • We lie to ourselves if we think we have absolutely no fear because we have not yet been perfected.
  • None of us are perfect!
  • Instead of finding my identity in Christ I found it in what others said or thought about me. This my friend, was mistaken identity.
  • Rejection is probably one of the biggest things the devil uses to try and destroy our calling and even who we are in Christ and it is all the result of mistaken identity.
  • The Lord brought to my remembrance many events in my childhood that brought up that sense of rejection in my life.
  • . As the Lord showed me how I felt about myself as a result to that trauma I started to understand at least one area that my rejection originated from.
  • Of course the root was mistaken identity, but the shovel that dug the hole for that seed to be planted was the sexual abuse.
  • Because I didn’t know God, I didn’t know what God said about me or who I really was.
  • I let the world and those around me dictate who I was. This was a recipe for failure. I looked for acceptance from those around me instead of God.
  • Not knowing who I was in Christ I was building on a faulty foundation and had no choice but to take the wrong road in life. I was lost and didn’t know which way to go, until I saw the light. Jesus is the light that shows us the way, he is the way.

Questions to ask

  • I asked God where the social anxiety came from.
  • I looked at the depression and asked where it came from.
  • All these fruits were coming from another fruit, rejection. It was a mess! Then I had to ask, am I really rejected? Why do I feel rejected?
  • I realized that the rejection and fear of rejection was sprouting from a faulty foundation of course. But why? Ask yourself why. Ask God why.
  • What foundation was I building on?
  • But where did that rejection come from? It was time to pray and seek God.

Key points (Part 2)

  • Where do you find your worth?
  • I went back to destructive patterns because I found my worth and acceptance in something that was no more. God is forever. He is the first and the last. The alpha and omega. The beginning and the end. We must find our identity in something that will last and that is the Lord.
  • After high school ended I continued finding my acceptance in the wrong things and it led to destruction. My life spiraled out of control and I went deep into addiction.
  • I was sabotaging myself because I rejected myself. I was living out a lie. I believed the lie from Satan of who I was and I was living it out and making it a reality myself. Satan didn’t make me live that way. He simply suggested to me a lie of who I was and I believed it and ran with it!
  • I couldn’t handle the reality of who I had become. It wasn’t until I received Christ as my savior that I could let go and forgive myself for who I had become and realize that I didn’t have to be that person. God had created me for more. God had more for me than the life I was living.
  • Christ accepted and loved me and told me I was forgiven, I was special to him. I was worth dying for! Getting this revelation changed my life! I was able to forgive myself because Christ forgave me. I was able to embrace his love and his promises of a better life.
  • I believed and I received. I was changed from the inside out. The Lord tore down the faulty foundation and I began rebuilding on a foundation of Christs love. Yes it is a process, but it only gets better every day. We change glory to glory.
  • The bible says in Proverbs 23:7: “For what a man thinketh in his heart so is he.” Whatever we think in our heart is what we become. If we believe the lie from Satan about who we are then we live that out. But if we believe God about who we are then we live that out. God is the only one who can change our hearts. We can’t do it. Ask God to change what you think in your heart and choose to believe God. He is bigger than anything you have done and anything you have gone through. Our God is able! Get in the word and in prayer in a close relationship to God and learn who he is and who you are in him. Choose to believe! It will change your heart and your life.
  • My foundation had been built on lies of Satan.
  • I began proclaiming Gods word over my life and reciting who he said I was. I battled the lies of Satan with Gods word out loud and in prayer.
  • We are not helpless in this fight. We have weapons of warfare. Prayer is a mighty weapon. It is in the battlefield of our minds that victory will begin.
  • Whoever you believe you are, let it go! Give it to God right now and receive who he says you are.
  • Your past does not determine your future. What you have been through does not dictate what is to come in your life. What you have done is not who you are. Give it to God. Let him determine your future and worth. Step into what God has for you. Proclaim these promises over your life and accept his love and grace. Speak these healing words over yourself out loud and battle the lies of the enemy.
  • Every time a negative thought goes through your head take it captive and battle it with Gods word.
  • We are transformed by the renewal of our mind by the word of God and by prayer, proclaiming the truth and word of God over our lives, battling the lies of the enemy with the word of God and believing what God says.
  • We have to train our minds and the way we think, not conforming to the ways of the world but subjecting ourselves and our minds to the will of God. Practice makes perfect. Before we came to Christ we were in the world and we believed the lies of the enemy.
  • Now that you have put on the mind of Christ you can accept and understand who he is and who you are. You no longer have to believe the lies of the enemy and accept who he says you are in the world. You are no longer spiritually discerned. You can understand the things of the spirit of God and receive it. You are made new. You are a new creation in Christ Jesus You are no longer who you once thought you were in the world. You are no longer in the world you are in Christ Jesus!
  • Foot notes in Life Application Study Bible NIV by Zondervan states, “Because we were alienated from God, we were strangers to his way of thinking and were “enemies in our minds.” Sin corrupted our way of thinking about God. Wrong thinking leads to sin, which further perverts and destroys our thoughts about him. When we were out of harmony with God, our natural condition was to be totally hostile to his standards.”
  • Christ came so that we could be saved and transformed to the likeness of God, leaving our sinful ways behind us. We also can leave all the hurt and all the lies and who we were in the past and step into what God has for us now. Jeremiah 29: 11: For he knows the plans he has for you, plans to prosper you not to harm you. Plans for a future and hope.”
  • Greatbiblestudy.com states “God desires us to know who we are and realize how deeply he loves, accepts, and appreciates you so you can live out the fullness of what he has for you. Ephesians says to be rooted in love. Without being rooted and grounded in the love and acceptance of God, we can’t experience the fullness of God in our lives. Ephesians 2:19”
  • Turning to others or to yourself for that love and acceptance is setting yourself up for failure. Find your worth in Christ for you are not of the world. The world rejected Jesus. The bible says the world will reject you. So you have to find, know, and remind yourself of your worth in God and believe who and what he says about you and who you are.
  • Train your mind to receive what God says about you so you can believe and replace that root of rejection with God who is love.
  • Speak to those negative thoughts, take them captive and speak Gods word over them.
  • Use Gods word over your life. Be victorious. Jeremiah 23:29: “Is not my word like fire declares the Lord and like a hammer that breaks rocks into pieces.” God’s word is mighty and powerful. It can demolish any stronghold and destroy any root.
  • When I was battling mistaken identity I wrote down on a paper all the things God said about me and who I was, in case I forgot. Sometimes we need some refreshing and a reminder. I would speak these versus over myself frequently until I believed it in my heart. I urge you to give it a try. Here are the versus I wrote down:
  • Psalm 139; 14: I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
  • Romans 8;31, Ephesians 3;20, 2Corinthians 4;17, 2Timothy 1;7, 1Corinthians 10;13, Romans 8;28, Romans 8;38-39, Galatians 2;20, Philippians 4;8, Psalm 17, Deuteronomy 7;6, John 10;10, Proverbs 3;5.  
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Roots (Week 3 Part 1 and 2

Roots (Week 3/ Rejection) Part1

Recap:

Last week we discussed the root of fear of failure that the Lord had revealed in myself. Maybe that particular root hit home for you as well and you were able to get free from some things and get some healing. Or, maybe the Lord showed you some different fruit in you other than fear of failure.

Don’t worry, we will be going over more roots and fruit throughout this series. On our first week we focused on praying earnestly for the Lord to reveal fruit in us that he wanted us to work on. What fruit did he show you? Did you write it down?

The second week we focused on praying to the Lord to reveal the root that was bearing this particular fruit in our lives. Did you write down what the Lord showed you? Throughout this process you are guaranteed to get more out of it if you take the time to journal your thoughts, actions, and emotions.

You will be able to go back to your journal at the end of the week, and with the help of the Holy Spirit you can pick out the fruit in your life. Journaling will also help you find the root. It is important to stay in constant communication with the Lord throughout the day discussing our weekly focus with the Lord and waiting on the Lord to respond, and he will.

Expect the Lord to answer. Last week we also discussed some techniques for healing those roots such as forgiving others and letter therapy. Did you try any of those? Once the Lord reveals the root in your life it is crucial to seek healing. It is good to know what is causing a problem but it is better to get healing and resolve the problem so it doesn’t keep arising.

 

This week’s focus:

Continue praying for the Lord to reveal the fruit in your life and write it down. Walk with the Lord. Talk to him just like you would talk with anyone else that is with you throughout the day. Ask him questions. Know he is walking with you. Journal your thoughts feelings and emotions. Pray earnestly for the Lord to show you the root of the fruit and write it down. Seek the healing you need from the Lord.

 

Faulty Foundation:

Last week I mentioned mistaken identity. Mistaken identity goes all the way back to our foundation. If we build on a faulty foundation then we are bound to fall. If we are finding our identity in anything but Christ then whatever we find our identity in is our foundation or points to our foundation.

Mathew 7:24: “Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and flood waters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.”

As I prayed to the Lord and took a look at fruit in my life, I noticed that much of my fruit in the past and even now were woven together in a mess of spider webs. One root produced multiple different fruits and one fruit sprouted from many different roots. It was a mess.

It is important to focus on one thing at a time. I thought back on my addiction and wondered of the differing root causes, there were more than one root to the addiction. Fear of failure, which we discussed last week was only one root of the addiction. Another root to the addiction the Lord showed me was rejection.

Rejection, even though it was indeed a fruit, also sprouted off into other fruits, but the root of all of it was the same, which was a mistaken identity. I was building on a faulty foundation. I was building on a worldly foundation because I didn’t know the Lord.

If we don’t build on the foundation of Christ and his word then our foundation is faulty and the fruit we produce is of the world and not of God. Rejection is of the world. If we are in Christ we are not rejected, we are accepted.

Sometimes after we come to Christ it takes us some time to get the revelation of acceptance. And so the root is still there from the faulty foundation sprouting rotten fruit. Until we get to the root and fix the foundation we will continue with worldly fruit.

 

 

Rejection

For now, let’s focus on rejection. At first I didn’t even know that rejection was a fruit that I exhibited. First the Lord showed me other fruit that led me to rejection.

I was exhibiting fruit such as, addiction, social anxiety, fear of failure, depression, and loneliness. Last week we discovered that un-forgiveness was the root of my fear of failure along with mistaken identity. Both roots were bearing the same fruit.

I wrote down all the fruit that the Lord showed me, then I linked them back to a root by prayer and seeking God. Look at the fruit in your life. I looked at addiction and asked how I got to that point. After some searching I realized that it started with a need of acceptance.

I asked God where the social anxiety came from. Social anxiety was coming from fear and the fear was that I would not be accepted. Because I feared not being accepted it made me nervous around people. I was afraid they would think badly about me and not accept me.

I looked at the depression and asked where it came from. I had been isolating myself from the world for fear of not being accepted. As a matter of fact, I thought I wasn’t accepted already so I stayed to myself and didn’t attempt to have fellowship which led to depression.

Anxiety? Same place. All these fruits were coming from another fruit, rejection. It was a mess! Then I had to ask, am I really rejected? Why do I feel rejected? It took some time and some effort on my part but as I seeked God on the matter and journaled my thoughts, I discovered that rejection was closely related to fear.

The Bible says there is no fear in love, perfect love casts out all fear. Those who fear have not been perfected in love. Swallowing this wasn’t easy, but of course I wasn’t perfected in love. Jesus is love and we will not be perfected until he comes back, but we are in the process of being perfected now.

It is to be expected to not be perfected in love and to fear. We lie to ourselves if we think we have absolutely no fear because we have not yet been perfected. So don’t feel alone. None of us are perfect!

After the Lord brought that scripture to mind I wrote it down in my journal and got into my bible. As I Read I came across the scripture about the faulty foundation. I realized that the rejection and fear of rejection was sprouting from a faulty foundation of course. But why? Ask yourself why. Ask God why.

God showed me that the foundation we are to build on is Christ’s love, and acceptance. What foundation was I building on? I was building on a worldly foundation. I was basing everything on worldly values.

Instead of finding my identity in Christ I found it in what others said or thought about me. This my friend, was mistaken identity. Mistaken identity is a big deal. This rejection is a big cause of demonic bondage.

After reading some material from Greatbiblestudy.com I was able to understand it a bit better. This website talked about how rejection wounds deeply because it attacks the very person we are. It destroys self-esteem and attacks our purpose in life and tries to destroy who we are.

Rejection is probably one of the biggest things the devil uses to try and destroy our calling and even who we are in Christ and it is all the result of mistaken identity. Here is some fruit from rejection that grows from mistaken identity: Rebellion, fabricated personality, the need to fit in and be accepted by others, rejecting others before they reject you, the tendency to wonder if a person rejects or accepts you, self-pity, loneliness, and inability to be corrected or receive constructive criticism.

These are only some of the fruits of rejection. Did you find yourself in any of those? I sure did! After going over this list of fruit, I wrote the fruit that I exhibited down in my journal. This rejection was a big deal!

Rejection had been effecting, or should I say, infecting my life in so many ways! But where did that rejection come from? It was time to pray and seek God.

The Lord brought to my remembrance many events in my childhood that brought up that sense of rejection in my life. One event in particular was when I was molested at age seven or eight. As the Lord showed me how I felt about myself as a result to that trauma I started to understand at least one area that my rejection originated from.

Of course the root was mistaken identity, but the shovel that dug the hole for that seed to be planted was the sexual abuse. After that happened to me I felt disgusting. I felt dirty. I felt rejected. I thought nobody would want me because I was so filthy. I had even rejected myself.

These feelings are common for anyone who has dealt with sexual abuse and even physical abuse and neglect. You feel unwanted, filthy, not worthy, outcast and downright horrible. Even though others may not view you as that, you view yourself as that.

Because I didn’t know God, I didn’t know what God said about me or who I really was. I didn’t know God said I was valuable and beautiful and accepted. All I knew was how I felt and my feelings told me I was hideous.

At an early age I based my identity on who I felt I was and that wasn’t good. Then throughout life I began learning who I was based on worldly views. I let the world and those around me dictate who I was. This was a recipe for failure. I looked for acceptance from those around me instead of God.

I tried to fit in so I was weak to peer pressure. I dealt with depression as a teen because I felt like no matter what I did I would never fit in and so I withdrew from the world. I thought I was not like everyone else, like something was wrong with me. I felt disgusting.

Others were not really rejecting me like I thought. I was rejecting myself and so I didn’t give others the chance to accept me. Not knowing who I was in Christ I was building on a faulty foundation and had no choice but to take the wrong road in life. I was lost and didn’t know which way to go, until I saw the light. Jesus is the light that shows us the way, he is the way.

 

Key Points

    • If we build on a faulty foundation then we are bound to fall. If we are finding our identity in anything but Christ then whatever we find our identity in is our foundation or points to our foundation.
  • I thought back on my addiction and wondered of the differing root causes, there were more than one root to the addiction.
  • I was building on a worldly foundation because I didn’t know the Lord.
  • If we are in Christ we are not rejected, we are accepted.
  • I wrote down all the fruit that the Lord showed me, then I linked them back to a root by prayer and seeking God.

 

I discovered that rejection was closely related to fear.

  • The Bible says there is no fear in love, perfect love casts out all fear. Those who fear have not been perfected in love.
  • Jesus is love and we will not be perfected until he comes back, but we are in the process of being perfected now.
  • We lie to ourselves if we think we have absolutely no fear because we have not yet been perfected.

 

    • None of us are perfect!
  • Instead of finding my identity in Christ I found it in what others said or thought about me. This my friend, was mistaken identity.
  • Rejection is probably one of the biggest things the devil uses to try and destroy our calling and even who we are in Christ and it is all the result of mistaken identity.
  • The Lord brought to my remembrance many events in my childhood that brought up that sense of rejection in my life.

 

    • . As the Lord showed me how I felt about myself as a result to that trauma I started to understand at least one area that my rejection originated from.
  • Of course the root was mistaken identity, but the shovel that dug the hole for that seed to be planted was the sexual abuse.
  • Because I didn’t know God, I didn’t know what God said about me or who I really was.
  • I let the world and those around me dictate who I was. This was a recipe for failure. I looked for acceptance from those around me instead of God.
  • Not knowing who I was in Christ I was building on a faulty foundation and had no choice but to take the wrong road in life. I was lost and didn’t know which way to go, until I saw the light. Jesus is the light that shows us the way, he is the way.
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Questions to ask

  • I asked God where the social anxiety came from.
  • I looked at the depression and asked where it came from.
  • All these fruits were coming from another fruit, rejection. It was a mess! Then I had to ask, am I really rejected? Why do I feel rejected?

 

    • I realized that the rejection and fear of rejection was sprouting from a faulty foundation of course. But why? Ask yourself why. Ask God why.
  • What foundation was I building on?
  • But where did that rejection come from? It was time to pray and seek God. 

 

  • After reading part 1 of week three it is a good idea to search youself and let God search you to reveal any fruit that may have been hidden. Ask yourself, could you locate yourself in any thing we discussed in this chapter. Write it down! Seek the Lords guidance and comfort. After spending some time searching move on to part 2.
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Week 3 part2

 

 

Be Healed in the name of Jesus

 

Where do you find your worth?

Most of my destructive patterns including addiction, depression, and suicidal thoughts were coming from rejection. In high school I seemed to have straightened up a bit but the root of rejection was only lying dormant. In high school I found my approval from sports, but not God.

I was finding my worth form my accomplishments. I was good while I was accomplishing something. Many of us find our worth in our accomplishments. This is dangerous because what happens when that accomplishment comes to an end?

Well, after high school I didn’t do sports anymore and got pregnant. My time of accomplishment was over I thought, and so was I. I felt like a failure. I went back to destructive patterns because I found my worth and acceptance in something that was no more. God is forever. He is the first and the last. The alpha and omega. The beginning and the end. We must find our identity in something that will last and that is the Lord.

After high school ended I continued finding my acceptance in the wrong things and it led to destruction. My life spiraled out of control and I went deep into addiction. The drugs numbed me and dulled the pain of my past and my hurt. I thought I’d never be good enough for anything so I didn’t try any more.

The deeper I got into drugs the more it was confirmed that I was a failure and unaccepted. I was sabotaging myself because I rejected myself. I was living out a lie. I believed the lie from Satan of who I was and I was living it out and making it a reality myself. Satan didn’t make me live that way. He simply suggested to me a lie of who I was and I believed it and ran with it! I tried to quit drugs many times but always relapsed because the nightmares of who I was would play on my mind.

I couldn’t handle the reality of who I had become. It wasn’t until I received Christ as my savior that I could let go and forgive myself for who I had become and realize that I didn’t have to be that person. God had created me for more. God had more for me than the life I was living.

Christ accepted and loved me and told me I was forgiven, I was special to him. I was worth dying for! Getting this revelation changed my life! I was able to forgive myself because Christ forgave me. I was able to embrace his love and his promises of a better life.

I believed and I received. I was changed from the inside out. The Lord tore down the faulty foundation and I began rebuilding on a foundation of Christs love. Yes it is a process, but it only gets better every day. We change glory to glory.

The bible says in Proverbs 23:7: “For what a man thinketh in his heart so is he.” Whatever we think in our heart is what we become. If we believe the lie from Satan about who we are then we live that out. But if we believe God about who we are then we live that out. God is the only one who can change our hearts. We can’t do it. Ask God to change what you think in your heart and choose to believe God. He is bigger than anything you have done and anything you have gone through. Our God is able! Get in the word and in prayer in a close relationship to God and learn who he is and who you are in him. Choose to believe! It will change your heart and your life.

 

Fight the good fight

My foundation had been built on lies of Satan. He told me I was a reject because of what happened to me. I lived that out. When I found out what God said about me my foundation was rebuilt. Now it is just a matter of sorting through the fruit and tracing it back to the root, the lies of Satan.

I began proclaiming Gods word over my life and reciting who he said I was. I battled the lies of Satan with Gods word out loud and in prayer. The word of God is our sword. Pick it up and fight child of God! You are not a victim you are a victorious!

We are not helpless in this fight. We have weapons of warfare. Prayer is a mighty weapon. It is in the battlefield of our minds that victory will begin. We have the belt of truth and God is truth. Choose to believe truth instead of lies.

We have the shield of faith to distinguish the fiery darts of the enemy. We have the helmet of salvation and our feet fitted with the readiness of the gospel. We are warriors! We are children of the Most High God, royalty!

Whoever you believe you are, let it go! Give it to God right now and receive who he says you are. You are forgiven, redeemed, washed clean by the blood of the lamb, righteous, sinner made saint.

You are whole. You are healed. You are clean. You are loved. You are valuable. You are an overcomer because he overcame, Christ is in you. You are a light, you are beautiful for he gave beauty for ashes! You are the apple of his eye.

He will never leave or forsake you. He is with you. You are strong because your strength is from the Lord. In your weakness his strength is made perfect. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you! His grace is sufficient for you.

Your past does not determine your future. What you have been through does not dictate what is to come in your life. What you have done is not who you are. Give it to God. Let him determine your future and worth. Step into what God has for you. Proclaim these promises over your life and accept his love and grace. Speak these healing words over yourself out loud and battle the lies of the enemy.

 

Change your mind

Every time a negative thought goes through your head take it captive and battle it with Gods word. Put on the mind of Christ. Romans 12:2 says “Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.”

We are transformed by the renewal of our mind by the word of God and by prayer, proclaiming the truth and word of God over our lives, battling the lies of the enemy with the word of God and believing what God says.

We have to train our minds and the way we think, not conforming to the ways of the world but subjecting ourselves and our minds to the will of God. Practice makes perfect. Before we came to Christ we were in the world and we believed the lies of the enemy.

1Corinthians 2:14-16 says “The natural person does not accept the things of the Spirit of God, for they are folly to him, and he is not able to understand them because they are spiritually discerned. The spiritual person judges all things, but is himself to be judged by no one. For who has understood the mind of the Lord so as to instruct him? But we have the mind of Christ.”

Now that you have put on the mind of Christ you can accept and understand who he is and who you are. You no longer have to believe the lies of the enemy and accept who he says you are in the world. You are no longer spiritually discerned. You can understand the things of the spirit of God and receive it. You are made new. You are a new creation in Christ Jesus You are no longer who you once thought you were in the world. You are no longer in the world you are in Christ Jesus!

Colossians 1:21 says “Once you were alienated from God and were enemies in your minds because of your evil behavior. But now he has reconciled you by Christ’s physical body through death to present you holy in his sight, without blemish and free form accusation- if you continue in your faith, established and firm, not moved from the hope held out in the gospel.”

Foot notes in Life Application Study Bible NIV by Zondervan states, “Because we were alienated from God, we were strangers to his way of thinking and were “enemies in our minds.” Sin corrupted our way of thinking about God. Wrong thinking leads to sin, which further perverts and destroys our thoughts about him. When we were out of harmony with God, our natural condition was to be totally hostile to his standards.”

Romans 1:21, “For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles. Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. They exchanged the truth of God for a lie. And worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator- who is forever praised. Amen.”

Hopefully those bible verses were able to shed some light on the nature of how we got where we are and how some roots in our lives came to be. But God can turn it all around and is. Christ came so that we could be saved and transformed to the likeness of God, leaving our sinful ways behind us. We also can leave all the hurt and all the lies and who we were in the past and step into what God has for us now. Jeremiah 29: 11: For he knows the plans he has for you, plans to prosper you not to harm you. Plans for a future and hope.” He has plans for you!

 

Who am I?

Greatbiblestudy.com states “God desires us to know who we are and realize how deeply he loves, accepts, and appreciates you so you can live out the fullness of what he has for you. Ephesians says to be rooted in love. Without being rooted and grounded in the love and acceptance of God, we can’t experience the fullness of God in our lives. Ephesians 2:19”

Turning to others or to yourself for that love and acceptance is setting yourself up for failure. Find your worth in Christ for you are not of the world. The world rejected Jesus. The bible says the world will reject you. So you have to find, know, and remind yourself of your worth in God and believe who and what he says about you and who you are.

It is by faith. We must believe his word. We have to know him and know what he says about us and find it in the word of God. Speak it over yourself. Words are powerful. Train your mind to receive what God says about you so you can believe and replace that root of rejection with God who is love.

Speak to those negative thoughts, take them captive and speak Gods word over them. That tears down strong holds. 2Corintians 10:4: “The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought ot make it obedient to Christ. And we will be ready to punish every act of disobedience, once your obedience is complete.”

Use Gods word over your life. Be victorious. Jeremiah 23:29: “Is not my word like fire declares the Lord and like a hammer that breaks rocks into pieces.” God’s word is mighty and powerful. It can demolish any stronghold and destroy any root.

If you feel that people reject you remember that if you are in Christ that it is not you they are rejecting but it is God. 1Samuel 8:7: “It is not you they are rejecting but I.” The world doesn’t reject worldly men but the world will reject men of God. You will be rejected by the world but never by God.

Do you find your worth in God or in the world? The bible says to come out of her, to come out of the world. Be separate. Do not find your worth in the world or worldly possessions. Dare to be different. Live for God, let worldly rejection roll off your back and receive what God has for you. Rejection will come. But it is how we react that makes a difference. The wrong reaction to rejection can open you up to sin. Take it to God.

Who I am!

When I was battling mistaken identity I wrote down on a paper all the things God said about me and who I was, in case I forgot. Sometimes we need some refreshing and a reminder. I would speak these versus over myself frequently until I believed it in my heart. I urge you to give it a try. Here are the versus I wrote down:

John 8:36: “The son has set me free. I am free indeed.

Philippians 4:13: “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.”

Philippians 1:6: “He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.”

Romans 8:1: “There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.”

Those are just a few but here are more you can look up:

Romans 8;31, Ephesians 3;20, 2Corinthians 4;17, 2Timothy 1;7, 1Corinthians 10;13, Romans 8;28, Romans 8;38-39, Galatians 2;20, Philippians 4;8, Psalm 17, Deuteronomy 7;6, John 10;10, Proverbs 3;5.

Psalm 139; 14: I am fearfully and wonderfully made.

All these versus are still not all God has for you! There is much more. Find yourself in his word.

 

Key points

  • Where do you find your worth?
  • I went back to destructive patterns because I found my worth and acceptance in something that was no more. God is forever. He is the first and the last. The alpha and omega. The beginning and the end. We must find our identity in something that will last and that is the Lord.
  • After high school ended I continued finding my acceptance in the wrong things and it led to destruction. My life spiraled out of control and I went deep into addiction.
  • I was sabotaging myself because I rejected myself. I was living out a lie. I believed the lie from Satan of who I was and I was living it out and making it a reality myself. Satan didn’t make me live that way. He simply suggested to me a lie of who I was and I believed it and ran with it!
  • I couldn’t handle the reality of who I had become. It wasn’t until I received Christ as my savior that I could let go and forgive myself for who I had become and realize that I didn’t have to be that person. God had created me for more. God had more for me than the life I was living.
  • Christ accepted and loved me and told me I was forgiven, I was special to him. I was worth dying for! Getting this revelation changed my life! I was able to forgive myself because Christ forgave me. I was able to embrace his love and his promises of a better life.
  • I believed and I received. I was changed from the inside out. The Lord tore down the faulty foundation and I began rebuilding on a foundation of Christs love. Yes it is a process, but it only gets better every day. We change glory to glory.
  • The bible says in Proverbs 23:7: “For what a man thinketh in his heart so is he.” Whatever we think in our heart is what we become. If we believe the lie from Satan about who we are then we live that out. But if we believe God about who we are then we live that out. God is the only one who can change our hearts. We can’t do it. Ask God to change what you think in your heart and choose to believe God. He is bigger than anything you have done and anything you have gone through. Our God is able! Get in the word and in prayer in a close relationship to God and learn who he is and who you are in him. Choose to believe! It will change your heart and your life.
  • My foundation had been built on lies of Satan.
  • I began proclaiming Gods word over my life and reciting who he said I was. I battled the lies of Satan with Gods word out loud and in prayer.
  • We are not helpless in this fight. We have weapons of warfare. Prayer is a mighty weapon. It is in the battlefield of our minds that victory will begin.
  • Whoever you believe you are, let it go! Give it to God right now and receive who he says you are.
  • Your past does not determine your future. What you have been through does not dictate what is to come in your life. What you have done is not who you are. Give it to God. Let him determine your future and worth. Step into what God has for you. Proclaim these promises over your life and accept his love and grace. Speak these healing words over yourself out loud and battle the lies of the enemy.
  • Every time a negative thought goes through your head take it captive and battle it with Gods word.

 

    • We are transformed by the renewal of our mind by the word of God and by prayer, proclaiming the truth and word of God over our lives, battling the lies of the enemy with the word of God and believing what God says.
    • We have to train our minds and the way we think, not conforming to the ways of the world but subjecting ourselves and our minds to the will of God. Practice makes perfect. Before we came to Christ we were in the world and we believed the lies of the enemy.
  • Now that you have put on the mind of Christ you can accept and understand who he is and who you are. You no longer have to believe the lies of the enemy and accept who he says you are in the world. You are no longer spiritually discerned. You can understand the things of the spirit of God and receive it. You are made new. You are a new creation in Christ Jesus You are no longer who you once thought you were in the world. You are no longer in the world you are in Christ Jesus!

 

    • Foot notes in Life Application Study Bible NIV by Zondervan states, “Because we were alienated from God, we were strangers to his way of thinking and were “enemies in our minds.” Sin corrupted our way of thinking about God. Wrong thinking leads to sin, which further perverts and destroys our thoughts about him. When we were out of harmony with God, our natural condition was to be totally hostile to his standards.”
  • Christ came so that we could be saved and transformed to the likeness of God, leaving our sinful ways behind us. We also can leave all the hurt and all the lies and who we were in the past and step into what God has for us now. Jeremiah 29: 11: For he knows the plans he has for you, plans to prosper you not to harm you. Plans for a future and hope.”
  • Greatbiblestudy.com states “God desires us to know who we are and realize how deeply he loves, accepts, and appreciates you so you can live out the fullness of what he has for you. Ephesians says to be rooted in love. Without being rooted and grounded in the love and acceptance of God, we can’t experience the fullness of God in our lives. Ephesians 2:19”
  • Turning to others or to yourself for that love and acceptance is setting yourself up for failure. Find your worth in Christ for you are not of the world. The world rejected Jesus. The bible says the world will reject you. So you have to find, know, and remind yourself of your worth in God and believe who and what he says about you and who you are.

 

    • Train your mind to receive what God says about you so you can believe and replace that root of rejection with God who is love.
  • Speak to those negative thoughts, take them captive and speak Gods word over them.

 

    • Use Gods word over your life. Be victorious. Jeremiah 23:29: “Is not my word like fire declares the Lord and like a hammer that breaks rocks into pieces.” God’s word is mighty and powerful. It can demolish any stronghold and destroy any root.
  • When I was battling mistaken identity I wrote down on a paper all the things God said about me and who I was, in case I forgot. Sometimes we need some refreshing and a reminder. I would speak these versus over myself frequently until I believed it in my heart. I urge you to give it a try. Here are the versus I wrote down:
  • Psalm 139; 14: I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
  • Romans 8;31, Ephesians 3;20, 2Corinthians 4;17, 2Timothy 1;7, 1Corinthians 10;13, Romans 8;28, Romans 8;38-39, Galatians 2;20, Philippians 4;8, Psalm 17, Deuteronomy 7;6, John 10;10, Proverbs 3;5.   Find yourself in Gods word

 

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Roots (Week 2, Part 2)

Roots Week 2, Part 2

Revealing my fruit

When I began this process of writing Roots, the Lord showed me that not only would I be writing this series but that I would also have to partake. While writing this I too have been seeking the Lord on revealing my own fruits as I will use my own experience to minister to others. So this past week I have been going through some things. Every time I turn around someone is saying something about roots or fruit! It’s been amazing, difficult, and irritating honestly. All I can say is expect to get what you pray for! God is faithful and wants healing in the body of Christ, so he is more than happy to oblige when you seek him for healing. We just have to be a willing vessel. If you would like to blog your experience throughout the week on the website under the Roots section, feel free. We can communicate with one another and help lift each other up.

 

Here is just one of the fruits the Lord revealed to me last week:

Last Week I asked the Lord to search me to find fruit because I didn’t know what my fruit was exactly. Some of my fruit in the past was obvious such as addiction, rebellion, etc. Some, not so much. I prayed for three days for God to search me and reveal in me what he would like to work on with me.

I went to try and rent an apartment. I was only going to meet the lady to look at it. I called the lady on the phone to schedule a time I could come see the apartment. She began asking me some questions and asked me where I worked and how much money I made.

After telling her that I worked at Bojangles and what I brought home, she told me that I could not afford her apartment. Now, this was the cheapest apartment that I had found. When this Lady told me that I could not afford her apartment I was immediately offended. There was my clue right off the bat that the Holy Spirit highlighted for me.

When the Holy Spirit checked me because I was offended he simply said remember this, there is more. I was cut deep. I was angry and hurt.

The next day I awoke feeling hopeless and depressed, like giving up. In the past I would have given up. At first I didn’t realize why I was having these feelings and emotions.

I immediately went to the Lord in prayer. As I prayed the Lord began showing me that all these negative feelings were coming from the simple remark that woman had said to me the day before, when she told me I couldn’t afford her apartment.

I hadn’t even realized up to that point how deep that remark cut me or why. I honestly had put it away and buried it not giving it another thought as I ignored the pain from it. But then the next day the fruit that was activated by those simple words, “you can’t afford it”, started to manifest itself in me.

Who would have thought that one remark could activate a wound that was already there and that root could manifest fruit such as I was having that morning. All these feelings of hopelessness, depression and anger I was having that morning was fruit that was manifesting in my life, in my mind, and in my emotions. These fruits can also manifest physically causing anxiety and problems with health.

I got up and got out my notebook and jotted down the fruit that the Lord revealed to me: Depression, hopelessness, anger, fear. Then I wrote down the situation that activated the fruit to grow, “You can’t afford a home”. That’s what I heard at least. Really she said I couldn’t afford her home but all I heard was that I couldn’t afford a home period!

When that woman told me that I couldn’t afford that apartment what I heard was something totally different! I heard, “you are a failure. This is hopeless. You will never make it out of that mess. You will never have anything. You will never be able to take care of your children. Life is hopeless. There is no point in even trying. It’s pointless. Might as well give up.” This was the voice of the enemy. This was the voice I had been listening to in the past that led to my addiction and many failures.

At the bottom of the page I wrote, “Root______.” Now all I had to do was ask the Lord to reveal the root, the real issue underlying all these fruits. A simple remark from someone should not have hurt me like that unless there was already a deep wound there. And so that remark wasn’t the real issue. It only opened up a deep wound and that is what I prayed for after all. I thought, “Great, what have I got myself into Lord?”

 

And now for some healing:

Throughout the rest of the week I had to seek the Lord for the root. Something deeper was the cause of this. I sat down with my journal and wrote down my thoughts.

Why did that simple remark hurt me? The Lord began bringing up memories of my past and showing me why that remark hurt me. I wrote it all down.

The Lord showed me that growing up I had developed a fear of failure because of some past hurts. One situation in particular stuck in my mind of when I was growing up.

I was always trying to please my dad and trying to get his approval. Now whether or not I really got his approval I do not know, but as a child I felt that I never did. It seemed like every time I wanted to show him a new dance routine id made up or something of that nature that he never had time and was always irritated.

I felt like he never wanted me around and like I was a failure. And so the Lord revealed to me that this situation was the shovel that dug the hole while Satan planted a seed. That seed grew into a root of fear of failure.

As I went through life that seed was watered by other incidents and failures only confirming my fear. First we develop fear. In this case it was fear of failure from several past events. Then we are so afraid of failing that is exactly what we do! Were too scared to take the risk! Then that failure only confirms our fear and fuels the fire. The more I failed the more I believed that’s who I was, a failure. Then the more I believed it the more I became it.

It is important how we talk to our children. We say things to them like, “great, now you will never get a good job. You’re bad. You never do anything right. You’re always messing up.”

These things we say to our children cut deep and those children begin to believe those things about themselves. So then they expect failure in life and that they will never be anything. When you expect failure you won’t reach for anything higher because it seems hopeless.

You tell a child they are bad then they start to believe it and then what do they become? Bad! After all, that is what they were told they are. Words are powerful. Life and death is in the power of the tongue. You can speak life or you can speak death.

All these remarks that were said to me throughout my life stuck. That root had grown into a tree and was now bearing ugly fruit, yet the root was hiding. That root had been the cause of much failure and giving up in my life.

Failing and giving up was all I thought I could do. I just couldn’t see it any different and so that is what happened. I would sabotage myself! I was too afraid to take the risk to succeed.

I asked the Lord why this fear of failure was allowed to take root. I encourage you to ask the same questions I am asking so that some things are revealed. It is important to know what questions to ask. We need to understand how the root was planted in order to pull it up.

The Lord showed me that this fear of failure was allowed to take root because of un-forgiveness, also because I did not understand who I was in Christ. If you want to get technical, failure was a fruit along with hopelessness, depression and much more, all manifesting from a root of fear and un-forgiveness. I was searching for my identity in all the wrong places as a child. Instead of finding my identity in Christ I found my identity in what others said or thought about me.

After some searching, I realized that forgiveness would be required in order to receive healing and that I would have to constantly go back to remembering who I am in Christ and what God said about me.

I had to let those things that others had said to me and about me go. I had to forgive and forget! I had to choose to believe God over man. If you do not know what God says about you then I encourage you to read the word. Read his promises. Don’t just read it but choose to believe it. In the next section I will discuss with you mistaken identity, but for now, let’s focus on un-forgiveness.

Throughout my walk with the Lord I had brought this very situation to him and honestly thought I had forgiven. Now I am noticing how the fruit continues to pop up in my life. There are many layers in healing and sometimes we have to take our situation to the Lord more than once and continue forgiving.

Fight for it. Don’t let un-forgiveness plaque your life and your relationships. Take it to the Lord as many times as you have to until it sticks. Forgiveness is only one step in the healing process so sometimes you have to keep bringing it to the Lord until you have gained comfort and maybe even understanding. It is important to let the lord comfort you and lean on his promises.

Remember that while mother and father may forsake you, the Lord your God never will. (Psalm 27:10.) None of us are perfect and every one of us have let our children down at times and your parents have let you down at times.

Even while we continue to let each other down it is important to keep on forgiving, otherwise it will poison you. Your un-forgiveness is not hurting the other person, you are only hurting yourself. Let go and let God. Seek healing from the Lord. Remember he died for sinners like us. He forgave us when we didn’t deserve it and even when he knew we were still sinners. Let’s do the same for each other, even for our own sake.

I took my un-forgiveness to the Lord in prayer and asked him to help me forgive. When you forgive someone you may not feel like you have really forgiven them at first. It can be a process. The first step is admitting that you need to forgive. Then you must take it to the Lord in prayer.

Confess forgiveness with your mouth out loud as many times as it takes until it gets down into your spirit. Remember, words are powerful. Speak it and it will come to pass. Say out loud you forgive.

Even discussing the nature of the event or events with the Lord that wounded you can bring healing. Sometimes when we are wounded we don’t grieve, therefore we don’t heal. We just burry it.

There are many traumatizing events that happened in my life that I took to the Lord in prayer as I relived the event in my mind crying tears to the Lord. I had never allowed the hurt to surface in my heart much less grieve and so I never forgave and never healed.

Once I relived it, in the presence of the Lord, I was able to feel the pain, the anger, and the grief, etc. There are five stages of grief: Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. You can experience all or only some of these in any order. But reaching a place of acceptance is important.

Before you can heal from something you have to accept that it happened to you. And sometimes to accept something that happened to you long ago you have to relive it. You will feel the pain like it is just happening. But accept that it hurts and that it makes you feel a certain way but don’t stay there.

Process through those emotions and accept it. The Lord has to be in this with you. Keep your ear open to what God is saying and showing you. He will give you comfort and speak healing words to you and can even help make sense of some things.

While we may not be able to make sense of all things or ever know why certain things happen, we can be confident that God is in control and he will comfort us even when we don’t understand. While working through this process with the Lord be sure to pick up your Bible and hang on to his word. The word gives life.

Seek God for the healing you need and he will help you forgive. Draw close to the Lord and he will draw close to you. If you have a pastor or someone who is a believer that you are close to it is also a good idea to talk it over with them, but let God be your first choice, your go to guy. Submit everything to him first and listen for his voice. He is there.

During my time in therapy I had to do this one exercise in particular. I wrote a letter from myself with my left hand. I wrote a letter from the wounded little girl inside of me.

I am right handed. So if you were left handed you were supposed to write with your right hand. This activated a part of your brain that isn’t usually activated. You were supposed to write a letter from yourself as a child. A letter to yourself as an adult.

I wrote a letter from the child me to the adult me, in detail, telling about the traumatic event discussing my pain and what it did to me. Be prepared if you try this, it hurts.

After I finished my letter I couldn’t describe all the emotions and pain I was going through. When I was done I then responded to the letter from that little girl. This time I wrote with my right hand as the adult me.

I wrote from the adult me to the little girl me. I comforted her in the letter and helped her try to make sense of things and said some encouraging words. The goal was to answer the letter just like I would answer a little girl who was coming to me with that kind of pain.

Believe it or not, that letter opened up pain I didn’t know existed. But it also healed that pain and brought comfort. Writing a letter to yourself about your trauma is liberating. Write the details of the traumatic stressful event. You have to think to resolve past experiences. Also, telling others about the trauma is an important part of healing the effects of trauma.

 

Key Points

  • Expect to get what you pray for! God is faithful and wants healing in the body of Christ, so he is more than happy to oblige when you seek him for healing.
  • Lord, what is my fruit?
  • When the Holy Spirit checked me because I was offended he simply said remember this, there is more. I was cut deep. I was angry and hurt.
  • Who would have thought that one remark could activate a wound that was already there and that root could manifest fruit such as I was having that morning.
  • Now all I had to do was ask the Lord to reveal the root, the real issue underlying all these fruits.
  • A simple remark from someone should not have hurt me like that unless there was already a deep wound there. And so that remark wasn’t the real issue. It only opened up a deep wound. After all, that is what I prayed for.
  • The Lord showed me that growing up I had developed a fear of failure because of some past hurts.
  • And so the Lord revealed to me that this situation was the shovel that dug the hole while Satan planted a seed. That seed grew into a root of fear of failure.
  • As I went through life that seed was watered by other incidents and failures only confirming my fear. First we develop fear. In this case it was fear of failure from several past events. Then we are so afraid of failing that is exactly what we do! Were too scared to take the risk! Then that failure only confirms our fear and fuels the fire. The more I failed the more I believed that’s who I was, a failure. Then the more I believed it the more I became it.
  • It is important to know what questions to ask. We need to understand how the root was planted in order to pull it up.
  • I asked the Lord why this fear of failure was allowed to take root.
  • . If you want to get technical, failure was a fruit along with hopelessness, depression and much more, all manifesting from a root of fear and un-forgiveness. I was searching for my identity in all the wrong places as a child. Instead of finding my identity in Christ I found my identity in what others said or thought about me.
  • After some searching, I realized that forgiveness would be required in order to receive healing and that I would have to constantly go back to remembering who I am in Christ and what God said about me.
  • I had to let those things that others had said to me and about me go. I had to forgive and forget! I had to choose to believe God over man.
  • There are many layers in healing and sometimes we have to take our situation to the Lord more than once and continue forgiving.
  • Even while we continue to let each other down it is important to keep on forgiving, otherwise it will poison you. Your un-forgiveness is not hurting the other person, you are only hurting yourself. Let go and let God. Seek healing from the Lord. Remember he died for sinners like us. He forgave us when we didn’t deserve it and even when he knew we were still sinners. Let’s do the same for each other, even for our own sake.
  • The first step is admitting that you need to forgive.
  • Seek God for the healing you need and he will help you forgive.
  • Writing a letter to yourself about your trauma is liberating.

 

My prayer today: Lord I give you praise for who you are. Thank you that you care enough about your children that even the smallest things in our lives matter to you. Thank you for loving me unconditional. Thank you for dying for me while I was yet still a sinner. Thank you for who you say I am. Help me with doubt and help me to believe what you say about me Lord. I am a child of the most high God. I am forgiven. I am healed. I am whole. I am loved. I am special. I am the child of a king. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I am not alone for you are with me. You will never leave nor forsake me. I am an overcomer. I am redeemed. I am free. When I am week you are strong. I am because you are! Lord I give you praise! I pray that through this healing process that you draw close to us as we draw close to you offering comfort, guidance, understanding, and restitution. Lord heal your people and give them strength. In Jesus name, Amen.

Roots Week 2, part 1

Lets Dig! Roots week 2, Part 1

Recap of Last Week:

                Last Week’s Weekly Prayer: Lord I give you praise for who you are. Lord search me and reveal any unclean thing in me. Help me to meditate on your love Lord as you search my heart revealing to me the rotten fruit in my life. Help me to get to the root as only you can truly examine my heart. Minister to me healing Lord and make me whole. Open my eyes Lord that I may see myself. In Jesus name, Amen.

 

Last week we asked the Lord to search our hearts revealing any unclean thing in us bringing it to the surface as we meditated on his love. Hopefully some things were brought to the surface and revealed, showing us some fruit in our lives.

After doing some self-evaluation and letting the Lord reveal to you some things in your heart, were you able to pick up on it? The Lord reveals things to us in many different ways. Sometimes he speaks to us through prayer and sometimes through circumstances while the Holy Spirit will outline an action or reaction we have in a certain situation.

When you are praying for the Lord to reveal something to you in your life it is likely that he will do it through your life in a specific situation. As you have been praying for the Lord to reveal fruits in your life, have you noticed any thing that the Holy Spirit has outlined in your life? More than likely that was an answer to your prayer.

Thinking back on last week: Have you came into any confrontations or circumstances that caused you to act or react in any certain way? This was no accident. Looking back at that situation, what is the Holy Spirit highlighting for you? Write it down in your journal.

Maybe someone made you angry and you reacted in an unpleasant way then you got a check from the Holy Spirit just saying remember this. Right now I pray that the Holy spirit bring those things back to your remembrance and begin to reveal the fruit to you, In Jesus name. Maybe throughout last week you battled with fear, depression, anxiety, anger, etc. All these feelings are fruits.

Thinking back, do you believe that maybe you were having these feelings as a result to the prayer you prayed last week for the Lord to reveal your fruit, to show you yourself and what is in you? More than likely God is showing you something. Pay close attention.

Write these fruits down and save it so that you can pray about it asking God to reveal to you a deeper revelation. But don’t focus on these bad fruits, focus on the goodness of God and be open to hear his voice as you seek healing. You will face unpleasant things so be sure you remember the purpose, and that is healing. Look forward to the uprooting that is taking place and praise God for it.

While exploring our fruits some pain and inner hurt may surface. It is important to immediately seek the Lord when you feel this way, asking him to administer healing and strength and inviting him closer to you to be your comforter through this process.

Lean on the Lord and praise him for what he is doing. Joy comes in the morning! Facing these fruits in our lives can be difficult and even sometimes gut wrenching painful. This is why a close personal relationship with the Lord is required.

Only he can comfort you through this and deliver you out of your mess, making beauty from ashes! You may be tempted to run from what God is revealing, but instead of running from your issues, embrace them and run to the Lord with them.

I pray that as the Lord reveals the fruits in your life that you are able to accept what he is showing you and that he will comfort, lead, and guide you through this process. I pray that he blesses you out of his glorious heavenly riches with fruits of the spirit and more importantly with his presence. I pray that through this you will dig deeper into Gods word understanding more of who God is and how much he cares for you. I pray that your relationship with the Lord grows into something unfathomable! I pray that through your pain he bring joy and comfort and deliverance. I pray that he blesses you with his presence and walks with you and you with him constantly seeking his face in every way! May the presence of the Lord rest upon you in a mighty way and may you shine in the light of his glory! In Jesus name, Amen!

 

 

Weekly prayer focus ( June 9-2016 – June 16-2016 )

Weekly Prayer: Lord I give you praise for who you are. Lord search me and reveal any unclean thing in me. Help me to meditate on your love Lord as you search my heart revealing to me the rotten fruit in my life. Help me to get to the root as only you can truly examine my heart. Minister to me healing Lord and make me whole. Open my eyes Lord that I may see myself. In Jesus name, Amen.